Dreams are fragile things. They are born out of hope, hard work and determination. The dreamer works hard to nurture the dream into fruition. Anyone who has dared to dream knows how hard it is to stay positive to grow the dream into reality. Last week my dreams faced a battle that threatened its permanent destruction. Through strength, support and sheer determination, I resuscitated my dreams to get them back on track. I learned I have to change my thinking and regain my confidence to get back to my goals.
Over the last year, I jumped into this writing journey to make a living, make a difference and get away from a traditional job. I know writing for a living is an uphill battle. Critique is all around me. Constructive criticism is part of the job. But—down right attack on my potential as a person is attempted assassination. Someone who knew this attack could destroy me delivered it with precision.
It worked for a moment. I was hurt, angry and frustrated. I work every day at my writing. I search for places to show case my work. I just have not found steady work as a writer – yet. It is exhausting to search everyday weeding out scams in search of a good paying job. The reviews of my work say I have potential. I wish potential paid the bills and fed my family.
After the turbulent emotions passed, I decided to work harder to find leads to steady work. I already have a part-time job, but aim to find full-time writing work. I will return to networking. I have to ask more questions and ask for help. This is a job you need a strong network to help get you succeed. My next goal is to begin to flesh out my next book. Someone recently asked me to write a book for him. Instead of not knowing what to do next, I have to find out what is the best way to approach this situation. How do I write-up a contract, what needs to be said before the book begins? This is all new territory for me, but I cannot sit worrying about the what ifs. Somewhere I know this will be worth it.
Yes, it would be easy to return to my old job. I loved it. I worked hard to achieve it, but my dreams have changed. My writing career has waited on the shelf for many years. I do not want to put it back there because the path is too hard. I must have confidence in my potential. I have to identify myself as a writer with the same conviction I identify myself as a mother and a wife. I am determined to accomplish my goals. My support group is intact and all my ducks are in a row. Get ready world Here I come!